Why do I do it? Why do I allow myself to live like this. The lies, the deceit... What have I done to deserve this treatment? I have forgiven time and time again things that for most would forever end a relationship. There is no pain like being played and deceived by the one you most love. I am a fool. A fool who believed in something so much that not even the worst act imaginable couldn't change my dream. I must let the dream go. I must face the reality that nothing will change. I have to think that everything I am told is a lie, because everything I have been told ... is a lie. It ends now. I can no longer allow myself to have pity. I can no longer allow myself to be treated in this way. I can no longer care. I must put her out of my heart and mind. I must take care of my kids and myself, no one else. I can't even be cordial, I must be tough. This situation will ruin my life if I allow it to go on. It all ends here and now. I must move forward and never look back.
